Wednesday, 12 May 2010


"Within the sacrocanctity of early morn, she housed her true identity.

The above phrase is from a current work-in-progress manuscript from a survivor of Mk-Ultra, mainly I. As mentioned in my first posting on this site, I was forcefully taken from my loving and devoted parents prior to reaching my sixth birthday. It was after this politically motivated action that I first was exposed to Mk-ultra and the method called psycho-driving. I remember the fact that a tape recorder was constantly being played while I slept. This invasion into the subconscious was done for the purpose of driving out the stored core memories of my biological family and implanting in its stead programmed information and an altered personality state.

My parents had been married for nearly five years prior to me having been conceived. Since my parents very much wanted a child, my coming into the world and their lives brought much joy and happiness to them. My parent's feelings of genuine love and gratitude were transmitted into every communication they shared with me. Invisible but not unnoticeable, our home was permeated with the precious emotions of respect and love.

Physical possessions are sometimes the most treasured and valued things in peoples' lives. For some, the things which are regarded above all else are their children, their values, their principles and standards. Attributes like ethics, integrity, and a person's word are not easily compromised commodities for the many, or the few who desire a humane and civilized society.

Encyclopedia Britannica

The power, being, or realm understood by religious persons to be at the core of existence and to have a transformative effect on their lives and destinies. Other terms, such as holy, divine, transcendent, ultimate being (or reality), mystery, and perfection (or purity) have been used for this domain. "Sacred" is also an important technical term in the scholarly study and interpretation of religions.

Within the sacrosanctity of early morn was housed her true identity. In the hallowed moments of emerging dawn, ascended, intentionally obstructed images of my family, home, faith practices, personage and innate frolic and imagination. Snippets of memories of my earliest childhood would peer when I became absorbed and interacted with the emerging cosmic elements of dawn.

Deeply rich purple ascending clouds bellowed within extraterrestrial space like advancement of mysterious time. Also, deeply rich was the inner howl, non-audibly emitted, the word, "Mother, mother." The benevolent colors of approaching morning submitted to me reflective hues of reminiscence of colors contained in a floral house gown which was once worn by my mother.

If the properties of the human mind is not considered sacred than I question what is considered sacred?

An individual's birth and biological rights of free thought and imagination should not be usurped and stagnation on the blood-stained altars of governmental self-interest.

If the human experience is not free to function within the propensities of ones' own innate drives, aptitudes, talents, spiritual expression, and moral stance, then I present the question what is freedom and how is it defined?

If the soul can be thought of as ones’ own self awareness, ones’ own inner dimensions of thoughts, belief, critical discernments, a multitude of complexities contained within the space of nothingness and everything; how than can it be robbed of its inherent rights of individual function and decision making?

Mk-Ultra forcefully aborted its subject’s rights to emotional and spiritual personalized development; and instead, Mk-Ultra injected into the spiritual veins of its subject’s empty awareness and a subjugated spirit.

Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.” Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.” For the soul walks upon all paths. The soul walks not upon a line, neither does it grow like a reed. The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless pedals. --- Kahil Gibran, The Prophet, 1923

Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard --- Anne Sexton

When you do things from the soul you feel a river moving in you, a joy. When action comes from another section, the feeling disappears. --- Jalal ad-Din Rumi

When a person's imagination is violently ruptured throught medically unnecessary electroshock treatments, Is not the soul affected?

Maryam Ruhullah

1 comment:

  1. the tip of an iceberg. Remember that meeting when I was only 17 with Chris Dodd, Burgess, and all those other radical religious hacks at that church in Hollywood when you're bunch of Death penalty advocates took over the MKULTRA program? I have called the offices of the other side many times though they don't want to own up to the fact that I was told there were videos taken of that meeting. Do you all have to follow a planned script?
    What happened to all the men in this program? How is it we only hear about what women say that may or may have been successful inductions into the program and are they juicing or laws or law makers or both?
    My name is Keith Richard Radford Jr: my phone is 818 913-3914
    I was also at the Stanford Prison Experiment

    In the film shot when we were in a large room getting ready for the
    part of the program that we were going to be like prison guards I can
    be found along the wall in the back with out a place to write and
    later given one at a back table. I was one of the last to finish the
    paperwork along with 3 or 4 others and made a guard right off Then
    into the exercise I was/had become abusive to unruly people said to be inmates. We were told what to do by much older administrators.
    There were plenty of administrators.
    I did not know who they were exactly because they were alway giving us as mkultra kids, drugs. In the program mkultra I would wake in strange situations, in strange women's beds asking what are you going to do to me, strange costumes, boxes, sets, battlefields, Sometimes eye drops were used and often strange one on one beatings, maybe for cameras or just to document response.
    Back to the project,
    Those beatings were most often very bloody and provoked by their own design. Anyway
    When they swapped sides that is when the other guys became guards and were given
    batons and I and others became the prisoners exchanging positions as guards and inmates and the now prisoners did not need any provoking because they were already upset, beat us up, using lead weighted batons stress positions lights loud sounds and through torture, sleep deprivation. beatings by our tormentors had one of the only batons that had a lead slug running through the end of it, so they would beat me bloody and then laugh and would eat candy in front of us then beat us bloody some more. The guards got candy and the inmates did not. The beating were daily and the things like sleep deprivation was all the time in the cells. All these things happened after the shift from one side to the other and were so much more because at first there were no batons. They had asked for blackjacks and were refused but now the same administrators had weapons.
    Some one had one black jack and showed it too me and I know the damage one of those could do. At Wilshire Station back in the 70's an officer tore up an office with one I was in all the time threatening he would hit me with it.
    My guess was they were trying to make us ready for something and I know that hypnosis was used allot in the mkultra. I can tell you so many things that I experienced, and what they did and how bad it was but I am sure that you know most of it by having this website. The program was not only for murdering people, many of the people were finding prominent positions in government.

    write me for the rest of the story